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My name is Lita and I am going to be spanked by my Mommy for 1)lying 2)looking at online porn again-in fact starting today I'm to be spanked nightly before bed after I heal from todays punishment. 3.Disobeying my curfew. 4)Dressing improperly. Also I've been told to mention the fact that I have to be spanked in panties because I need to have a panty shield in place because I refuse to control myself and be soaking wet. It's not uncommon for me to wet myself. I will also try to do things to try to cum. I have a lot to work on.

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Lita again. Lest you think I'm not 18 I am 22 in grad school. Mommy is my S.O. who loves me more than I deserve and not only helped me by not letting me drop out of college to be an escort encouraged me to go to grad school. I don't deserve her. I still need guys for sex while she's a lesbian and I make her cry. I love her and I'm NOT living off her. Sometimes I feel so bad I cut on myself. She's HOT and smart and kind. I'm greedy(emotionally) an exhibitionst chronic masturbation. I try-I'll go for a month being good then act out-ACT out. I was the girl who would go to a party not drink and suck cock all night. I was raped twice and never mind reporting it I didn't change my clothes for 2 days cuz I had it coming. I'm writing this because Mommy thinks it's good for me. It may help me address my abuse issues someday. Writing this hurts. I would rather get whipped with barbed wire im crying im tired i need a thousand drinks jst beat me bloody Im sorry Mommy says my punishment can wait but only if its naptime. I'm shaking and crying and can't control it I need to be held. I love my Mommy.

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Lita, I struggled with many of the same issues you're currently facing. I was a cutter for many years, masturbated without knowing why, would randomly orgasm in public without being touched, often wet myself while trying to hide the fetish, party way too hard, dreamed of being screwed to death with a knife, slept with any guy willing and the sex was always unprotected. I've been raped more times than I care to remember and healing from that took me years.I can tell you from experience it doesn't matter what you were wearing, if you were sober, if you screamed, if you fought back or how many times before you had given consent. YOU DID NOT DESERVE TO BE RAPED. IN NO WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM DID YOU HAVE IT COMING.

I know its a long road out of that hell your in but it sounds like you have someone who's willing to guide you. You have to be open to accepting the help and fight for yourself along side your Mommy. I really think the two of you can do this and on the other side, you'll be amazed at the woman you've become. Sorry that you're being punished today and I hope in the near future you won't need the correction as often as you do now. Best of luck on your journey Lita.

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Sounds like "Mommy" may want to get you some counseling as well. Those things aren't cured by a spanking alone...and spanking can make some of them worse.

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@shygurl-she does want me to go to counseling I'm the one that refuses. I've been told that cultural differences may play a part in that. I grew up in S.Korea while my Mommy-S.O. is American. She is not overlooking my problems but most Asians DO NOT TELL. And girls? LOYALTY ABOVE ALL. Understand I may not lift a finger to protect myself but I would spend life in prison to protect a loved one.

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Guest KLF42

Well I was given my first essay assignment in 30 yrs, lets just say I was very shocked and learned a valuable lesson, Dont talk on your cell phone every again essay's are not fun at all and like the saying goes, Only you can pevent butt fires :unsure:

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Normally Id see this as a thread not to even comment on perhaps we need just a fantasy thread for such threads as this

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Guest KLF42

ummmm ok, it's a fantasy.. :huh:

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I didnt say yours was ....or anyones except the start of this thread

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