Spanking is very complicated for me...I've felt many of the things people talked about on this thread at different times... sometimes spanking is the most adult, erotic thing in the world for me...just thinking about it I've had orgasms...other times it's very intimate and caring but not really arousing...especially when I feel more childlike...or it can just be a light hearted, friendly game...or an embarrassing, painful punishment I feel like I need...or even a very transcendent, spiritual experience... it can be confusing because there are all these aspects for me...but I feel blessed to have experienced all these emotions around it...and that's why spanking is so special to me :)