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Thanks everybody for the kind words...they help motivate me...kind of like hairbrushes I finished another page...memories of 7th grade...and a cliffhanger for what comes next... https://spankingart.org/wiki/Rude_Rumps#Chapter_III

3 more pages...about being 12...feeling confused and overwhelmed...and a very bad incident I didn't talk about for a long time... https://spankingart.org/wiki/Rude_Rumps#Chapter_III

And another 2 pages No spanking in these...but about accepting people and kind of meditating on the end of childhood https://spankingart.org/wiki/Rude_Rumps#Chapter_III

2 new pages...including memories about reading parenting books and looking for spanking references https://spankingart.org/wiki/Rude_Rumps

And now...page 54 The theme of this page is...embarrassment...well sort of... see if you can find the Easter EGG https://spankingart.org/wiki/Rude_Rumps

Ok...I finished another 3 pages of chapter 3... I had alot of fun with the characters...especially the dorkiness https://spankingart.org/wiki/Rude_Rumps

My fantasies have always been like that too My dad actually was the designated spanker in our hosue...but of course I never fantasized about my real dad doing it...he was really gentle and not strict...I'd fantasize about someone very strict (but loving)...

I put a link to it on another thread: https://www.spankingneeds.com/board/index.php?/topic/25502-my-graphic-novel/ I try to do about a page a week...and I have a full time job...so I do stay busy with it Usually I'm an awful procrastinator...but with my graphic novel my obsession with it is enough to whip me along I think

Thank you sooo much for your very kind words...it means alot to me!! I'm definitely still working on it...I just finished another page and I'm starting on the next I do put alot of detail into the panels...Working in 3d is different from regular illustrations for me...it's more like creating a world...or at least a movie...so I spend alot of time on getting the sets and characters just right...and then I can make the panels tell the story I want... It's so interesting what you say about our experiences growing up being eerily similar...I've talked to alot of spankos and we all have these things in common... One of the reasons I got started on my graphic novel is it felt like there was almost nothing out there telling our story...as spankos... Over the last year I started reading alot of coming of age graphic novels from women...and there are a fair number from authors who are gay...as I was reading them I thought wow it would've been impossible to talk about that 30 years ago...probably even more recently...and it's wonderful now they can!! But for spankos I feel like we're still at that time in history where it's not safe to talk about...we have to be silent... There's been a few really brave people like Jillian Keenan...but there's so little out there telling our stories... Well it's been burning in me so long and as an artist I felt like I had to get something out... so that's what got me started on it... As far as how much time it takes...I try to get through about a page a week...and usually work on it every night for 3-4 hours...so it's probably about 20 hours a page...there's the 3d part I do in Daz then I do alot in Photoshop coloring and sometimes hand painting...then I do all the lettering in Illustrator... You're right though I don't plan to try to publish it...there are just too many issues...I know the childhood aspects are very controversial and alot of people would misunderstand it...but for me it's a big part of how my spanking feelings developed...so I can't leave it out or gloss over it...I try to show the emotions of it and how it left me feeling...both the good and the bad... I do kind of think I was born this way...but gosh I really don't know either!! There are some aspects with it I'm SURE I learned...specific things that excite me and resonate with me that I know came out of experiences I had in childhood or older... It's all so complicated... I know some people say they don't wonder why about it and just accept it...but for me I do always wonder and try to fit it together in my head...I guess that's just how I am...maybe it's an artistic thing...I don't know...? That's interesting what you say about magic too!! I've had these experiences and feelings I just couldn't explain...especially at certain times in my life...and I've always felt like there was something MORE out there...in some ways I guess I'm a seeker... I feel like these experiences are another thing that's made me feel different...on top of being a spanko...and it somehow fits together...

It's been with me forever too...I have memories going back to 3 or so...lying in bed and making up stories to myself about spanking...and this was before I have any memories of actually being spanked... My parents did spank me when I was a bit older...probably between 5 to 10 or so...but that wasn't unusual at all in the 70s when I grew up...and they weren't excessive about it or anything...so I don't think that caused it...I truly believe I was born this way... But I've always been obsessed with how my spanko feelings developed and grew... So obsessed I started creating a whole graphic novel about it... It's over 50 pages so far and I'm still at age 11

Oh gosh I remember Ping too!! I read the spanking part over and over and over... The book that made the biggest impression on me though...was The Lonely Doll... I got it for Christmas when I was 4 or 5...I remember I almost couldn't believe what I was seeing...I had it on my nightstand for years growing up...I'd read it at least once a week... I still have it too...complete with my name I wrote in the inside cover...block printed with letters backwards :)

I just finished the first 2 pages for chapter 3 http://spankingart.org/wiki/Rude_Rumps

I do the same thing When I get stressed or even just tired I have big trouble communicating...especially with words...they just kind of dry up... Other ways to communicate are easier for me...but I just shut down verbally... My bf and friends get frustrated... I don't know what helps really...for me I guess doing art does...that part of my brain still works even if I can't be verbal...or cuddling and touching... and just giving it time and space and not trying to force it...when I do that I just get more anxious and make it worse

I confess I didn't read most of Persepolis... I remember when it came out and I wanted to read it...and looked at it...but I was going through a rough time and didn't get around to actually reading it... Anyway when I saw your post I ordered it and now I'm going to read it!!