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I used an old over ripe carrot, I’d never abuse healthy ones 😂. @rubyredd infraction: being over protective about produce: @rubyreddwas spanked in the candy isle with licorice

Infraction: procrastination @rubyreddwas spanking in the produce isle of the grocery store with a carrot stick (couldn’t resist)

Congratulations. Will be a very rewarding career. Wishing you the best

Meditation never helped me. It just causes my mind to wander and think about everything. I can reach greater relaxation by taking a long drive, listening to my favorite music. Walking my dogs in the woods also relaxes me. Hope you find something that works.

Wishing you luck as well. It can be a great dynamic. I was best friends with a female for the 5 yrs I was a mentor/ disciplinarian. Had a lot of good times. Just hung out, laughed a lot. Was completely non sexual. We both trusted each other. I hope you find something similar.

Can’t really think of anything on my bucket list. I’ve used a variety of implements/positions. Had many different scenarios. I would say, the few public spankings I’ve given, were short and I was constantly looking around, so possibly more remote areas where I could be relaxed, and not looking over my shoulder lol.

Also fully vaccinated

I would not be comfortable speaking to my current counselors about this at all. I wouldn’t even consider it. If I knew for sure, the counselor was kink friendly, it would be nice to open up about it in therapy. Due to insurance limitations, it’s not always easy/or even possible to find one, unless you can pay out of pocket.

Welcome to the site

My arm never got worn out, but I’ve gotten blisters on my hands a few times

Had many, listened to Metallica and LIVE the most.

I have read many of your posts/poems/stories. The reason I read your posts and don’t skip past them, is you are always sincere, forthcoming, kind and genuine. I hope you can stop thinking of yourself as a freak and see your good qualities. You aren’t a freak. Sometimes we just have feelings for a person we can’t be with. One day you’ll find your special person. Usually this happens when you aren’t even looking. I understand what happened in your past makes it hard to trust. I went through a traumatic event decades ago. It’s crazy how it can effect us so many years later. I hope you me

I’ve been there as well, just on the other side, losing a long term spankee. Looking back I made bad choices when it ended. First I blocked the person from everything. It’s always been my tool when I lost someone or ended things with someone. Didn’t work that time. So I’d unblock, because I missed the person so much. Just seeing social media things brought me comfort. I would worry if the person was ok, as I didn’t agree their choices were the safest. Then I’d get those weak moments, where I’d send emails, even songs that explained my feelings. (Pitiful I know). I’d be proud if I di

My background is in psychology and behavior. I always have a punishment that fit the offense. It did not always involve spanking. Sometimes the punishment was a spanking, in addition to another punishment. There’s no sense in punishing someone, if they are not going to learn a valuable lesson from it. Of course this takes communication, and getting to know someone well, to learn what works best. I rarely decided on a punishment immediately (there were some exceptions). I needed time to think of the best approach. It sounds too “thought out” for some maybe, but I had great results in h

Thank you both for your kind words. Don’t know that I did that great a job, took about a year to get my strength lol. You both will too. I went through the depression, then anger and resentment. The anger was at myself for believing this person was who I thought they were. Anger for wasting so much time. Then I realized, yes we were great friends. Had a great spanking relationship. But, I was continuing to waste even more time missing who the person was (or what I believed the person was) , and I realized I didn’t miss the person they had became. Hope that made sense. Lol