I've run into this issue with others. Oddly enough, it's kind of a "permission" issue. We're socially conditioned to accept that we can't "break down" in public or around others. From that conditioning, we find ways to prevent that from happening (something that was more-or-less-allowed when we were children), and that inhibits us from crying in response to something conventional. This won't be fixed by spanking, it's something you have to fix internally before the spanking can promote tears. Just keep consciously reminding yourself that you're in an appropriate environment for crying. T