Later today I will be getting it good! There is no way to describe the feeling of knowing you are going to get a bare bottom otk butt blistering. Anxiety, excitement, fear, butterfly's, all wrapped up into one but that still doesn't quite describe the feeling. You have to experience it to really understand how the person who is in for it feels knowing they have it coming!
Mission accomplished. Crying during spanking took a combination of things today; being completely naked, longer corner time, strictness, and ofcourse spanking. I think the corner time before spanking helped set it up in regard to mindset. Once I was firmly positioned and the spanking begun the pain started and continued. However the pain was more than physical. Mentally, my focus shifted back to stuff I suppress and that's when I felt myself let go. I let go without trying to quickly distract myself or temper my emotions. My mentor hugged and talked me through it.
I'm glad I got the experience. I'm glad to know I can reach that part of myself. And I'm glad I don't have to be afraid. It was cleansing and I'm going to sleep well tonight.